By Yogisha Rani
I hated to love life.
Cuz it scared me,
That I will be afraid of death.
I hated making attachments
Cuz they made me afraid of leaving them behind
Cuz, they made me not want to die.
Its not the death that scared me.
Its the fear of death, that did.
Its that I m afraid of fearing death
Cuz I seem to have love her so
That when she finally comes with open arms
I m afraid I won’t want to leave.
Maybe I was wrong.
Maybe I can just love life
And not deny death when she is at the door
Maybe I can invite her in and tell her my stories with life
Maybe its the life I feared, feared to get too attached
Feared at the end it will hurt me.
But oh.
Maybe I was wrong.
Cuz maybe it will hurt more to fear it,
Than to love it.
Maybe its just the way of the universe
And will I be able to look death in the eyes
If I never so much so looked at her best friend.
Maybe it will be okay to let myself swim with life
With all her waves and tides, and the mysteries she hides
Even with the storms, fighting till the endless
To let myself drown, or stay afloat to see another peaceful sky
Maybe I should meet other boats, build a ship together
Maybe I should sail in the sinking sun
Till death pulls me up at the shore
Or lifts me from the bed of the ocean.
Maybe I should let myself love life
So I have stories to tell death.
To make her smile.
By Yogisha Rani
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