Are We Meant to be Abandoned?

By Sheetal B

Standing in front of the mirror 

I stared at myself for a while 

I saw the reflection of shattered piece,

which no longer had any courage.

Am I supposed to be like this?

Is this the fate of my life ?

Who knows ? who cares;

for I am just a piece of shit.

I gazed  into my eyes ,

it had lost its sparkle.

hiding behind the fear ,

never hoping to return.

I saw a mini me 

standing alike the me now,

the same stare ,the same fear

which had grown upon.

I wasn't like other students ,

I was different 

Yes ! I am different 

But does that make me a burden?

Where am I supposed to sit?

with girls ? or with boys ?

nobody ever told me ;

oh! nobody ever spoke with me.

I am ugly ,I am an alien,

They said-

insult me, humiliate me, beat me;

I'll still  wear that pretty smile.

Sitting alone in the corner ,

I cursed myself 

I cursed the lord for this.

Why lord! Why me ?

No one to talk about ,

no one to care about 

I had fallen into the arms of Darkness,

I couldn't even scream!

Thrown away by the family,

pushed away by the  friends, 

hatred by the society ,

I was left alone.

Is it my fault ?

Is it my badness ?

for I love being a girl

I love being a woman 

With bangles jingling 

with anklets laughing ,

with flowers on the hair ,

I wish I was a woman !

Is it too bad to wish for it ?

Is it a sin being a girl ?

Will I always be like this ?

hatred and left alone .

But why should my smile go down ?

for God has given me life!

he had created me,

And I must make the change!

To everybody out there,

Who suffers just like me

Put on your smile,

Bring back your sparkle.

Nobody cares about us ,

but my friends

I'll care about you 

I'll be your helping hand.

People, what wrong did we do to you all?

What trouble did we give you all ?

aren't you the ones stabbing us?

aren't you the ones mocking us ?

After all the pain and silence,

still we are here smiling 

but one question peeps out of my mind 

Are we meant to be abandoned??

By Sheetal B